I sin because I seek satisfaction in something else other than what God offers. When I sin, it is because I believe there is something better than the promise of God.
Maybe I do not know what God offers; maybe I simply do not believe/trust in what he offers. Maybe I know it but I do not really believe it.
Regardless, my sin is choosing satisfaction in something or someone else other than God. And maybe this is why it is often said that pride resides at the base of most sins
Pride, here, refers to my presumption that I know what is next and/or best. It speaks to my rejection of the wisdom of the Sufficiency of All things and my dependence on finite human wisdom, if it can be called wisdom at all
This is a terrible decision on my part because of His faithfulness and eternal love for me (Jer 31:1-3)
It really is a travesty knowing that I cannot even see 5 minutes into the future yet I choose to ignore the One who created time itself
Here are two scriptures and a quote that God has been bringing to mind to convict me
Jer 31:3, AMP
The Lord appeared from of old to me [Israel], saying, Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with loving-kindness have I drawn you and continued My faithfulness to you
You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore
JI Packer, knowing God
What matters supremely is not, in the last analysis, the fact that I know God, but the larger fact which underlies it — the fact that he knows me. I am graven on the palms of his hands. I am never out of his mind.
All my knowledge of him depends on his sustained initiative in knowing me. I know him because he first knew me, and continues to know me. He knows me as a friend, one who loves me; and there is not a moment when his eye is off me, or his attention distracted from me, and no moment, therefore, when his care falters.
This is momentous knowledge. There is unspeakable comfort — the sort of comfort that energizes, be it said, not enervates — in knowing that God is constantly taking knowledge of me in love and watching over me for my good.
There is tremendous relief in knowing that his love to me is utterly realistic, based at every point on prior knowledge of the worst about me, so that no discovery now can disillusion him about me, in the way I am so often disillusioned about myself, and quench his determination to bless me.
Abba, help me to choose you, to be overwhelmingly satisfied in you. Please convict me more and more. Draw me nearer unto you
Embed these truths into me, by your Spirit, so that they are second nature to me – for the sake of me living a life that is worthy of you, a life that is fully pleasing unto you.